I was tagged in a post, nothing new I am always being tagged in posts…..except this time. I began to read a plea for a photographers help! A mother had given birth to her beautiful son earlier in the day and as quickly as they had said hello they were going to have to say goodbye “for now”….
Tears began to fill my eyes as I was reading this post, I read the next line. This plea was asked by a beautiful lady Amberly Pace a fellow photographer for “Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep”. This organization offers professional photographers to come photograph babies who are born with wings or transitioning here to Heaven soon after birth. They were in need of a photographer to go be with Weston. A really close friend’s daughter had tagged me in the post and I KNEW I was supposed to go. I received the call at 9:22pm I grabbed my camera bag and I was out the door. On the drive to the hospital, I had tried my best to mentally prepare myself for the task ahead but as I entered room 4A all that preparation went out the door and I had to compose myself just to speak .I felt every emotion in that tiny room. It was feelings of joy, heartbreaking sadness, pure happiness and un-comprehensible grief.
As I began to photograph my mind shifted to this beautiful little human and each time I pressed the shutter button I knew that this photograph may very well be the only picture his mommy and daddy would have of him at that moment! I fought the tears for almost 2 hours. When I was finished I offered my condolences and said my goodbyes to this beautiful little baby and his beautiful family.
I walked out of that NICU and felt the tears began to fall I had just witnessed the beautiful gift of life and also the sadness of a family who were preparing to say goodbye way to soon! My heart was breaking for this family and especially for his mommy and daddy! I can’t fathom the way they were feeling but I knew I could pray and ask God to wrap His arms around them as they prepare to go through this. So that is exactly what I did…. PRAY!
Today when I received the news of his passing all I could think about was the images I had captured then I realized that tomorrow wasn’t just another Sunday. Weston’s mommy would wake up to her very first Mother’s Day, without the one person who gave her the gift of being a mother! My heart broke even more so I knew I had to put together a small collection of the photographs I have for her to wake up to. I know she will be sad tomorrow but she will wake up and have something from Weston…..